3 months, 3 steps, 3 words and 1 perplexed heart

My precious Bella has now been home for 3 months. Time has flown by and part of me feels like she has been here forever. Tommorrow she will be 10 months old. She is doing so well. In the last few weeks she has begun putting her head on our shoulders when we pick her up. This has been so special to me. She used to only do it if she was about to fall asleep but now does it to just be close to us.
She has been cruising around the house going from furniture to furniture. Four days ago she stood up and took three steps. I was watching her but all my guys were in the next room. I didn't want to scream and scare her but that is just what I did. Down she went and she didn't want to try again. Since then she has taken a step here and there but she is being cautious. Joshua asked me how old he and Justus were when the began walking. I told him 14 months. He cracked me up because he responded that he thinks God just makes Guatemalan babies smarter. Of course, I think all of my children are bright and wonderful. After all, I'm their mom!
She has picked up a few more words through sign language and has begun saying duh,duh when she is signing that she is done eating. She also says uh,uh when she signs to be picked up. Last week a phone rang on the television and she put her hand to her head and said hi. I wasn't sure if I imagined it or not so I rewound the program and she did it again. So now she does it with a play phone or the remote control when she gets her hands on it.

She has grown up so much in the last three months. I rejoice in it but it is hard because I feel like I missed so much of her being a baby. I don't want to seem ungrateful for all of the blessings that God gave me and knowing that I brought her home way earlier than most people who adopt bring their children home. I finally found the courage to admit it to my gal friends at lunch the other day. I am so glad I did because my friend told me she knows of someone who went through the same experience. But I would do it all over again because I know this precious girl is a total gift from God and she brings numerous smiles to my face everyday.